We had a great Labor Day weekend up in the mountains. We went to the ranch for the last time this year. It was the first time I've ever been where I haven't pigged out on junk food. I stuck to the Paleo guidelines and actually didn't eat anything off plan while I was there. Despite the cookies and cream cake and the popcorn that was available, I declined both knowing that I would regret it in more ways than one if I indulged. The cake was full of dairy products and would have resulted in a massive stomach ache which I am none too eager to experience again. I am proud of myself for how I ate this weekend. It wasn't perfect. I still snacked on too many nuts, but who cares? I didn't binge and I didn't even eat anything off plan while we were there.
I know I am making progress with my relationship with food. Yesterday was my first MOPS meetup and there was a whole buffet of food. I didn't know there was going to be food there, so I had already eaten dinner. One month ago it would have been the perfect excuse to pig out. There was a lot of good looking things there. Last night, I didn't eat anything because I wasn't hungry. I grabbed a water and that was it. I don't feel like I missed out, there is going to be food at every event and last night I genuinely didn't want to eat anything. One thing my body is finally coming to realize, that my brain always knew but my body didn't because either I was starving myself by only eating 1200-1400 calories a day, or I was feeding myself too many sugar loaded processed foods which wreak havoc on blood sugar and your satiety hormones, is that the world isn't running out of food. At least not where I live. Food is readily available, and it is ok to pass up food if I am not hungry or don't really want it. There will always be next time, and I certainly know where to get more food if I need it or want it. I'm excited for the changes that are happening and I think that for the first time in my life I am truly on my way to food freedom and having a healthy, balanced relationship with my food.
I'm on day 2 of Turbo Fire and I'm loving it. It's really tough right now and I'm doing most of the moves modified on low impact, but I'm still sweating like crazy and getting a good workout in. I'm sore today which means I'm building muscle. That's one thing I love about Turbo Fire is that it is a cardio workout but you still build a lot of muscle doing the program. Not as much as a weight lifting program obviously, but with all the punching and kicking and jumping and abs that goes on in the program, you can't help but build muscle. It's amazing how just a few days of working out at a higher intensity as improved my mobility. I feel like it's easier to move around now, just from moving my body more during my workouts. Today I did Fire 40 and my feet always go numb at the end of that workout, and today they didn't!! They were tingling a little bit, but they didn't go completely numb. That means my chiropractic care is working, and I'm totally stoked about that.
Hopefully things are on the up and up for me now. I still have my struggles, such as dealing with this current bought of infertility, and I have no idea how long it will last, but while it does, I'm taking this time to fix my health and trying to be patient. All things will happen within the Lord's time.