First Days, First Goal

This week has been crazy and super busy.  There have been a few times where I wanted to just screw it and start a different time because the stress at the beginning of the week was almost too much to handle.  But I was able to sign up at my favorite gym on Monday morning, and I did my first workout.  I don't think I can make it through a class yet, although I'm going to try Zumba tomorrow, so I decided to do the treadmill. I chose the treadmill because one of the things I really want to be able to do is run when I need to run.  Right now I can barely walk let alone run, I feel so pathetic.  I don't necessarily want to become a runner per say, but I would like to be able to run after my kids, run down the street to the bus stop, run to my car when its raining, etc.  My 6 year old girl can run faster and longer than me and that's just pathetic on my part.

I have discovered the best and most amazing running app ever.  It's called Zombies Run and it's my favorite.  It does everything that a normal running app does but it is also a game.  Every time you run you select to listen to an episode of the story, or you can simply do supply runs.  Then you take what you earned back to your city and you build your city safe from the zombies.  I love listening to the story and when they say "the Zombies have found you run!!!" it certainly makes you want to run faster haha!  I love it, and I want to know the next part of the story so that greatly increases my desire to do my next run and the likely hood that I will actually go do another workout.  So anyway, I didn't fall off the wagon on my first day simply because I figured if I blew it Monday evening that it was a whole day of suffering wasted.  I say suffering because change is uncomfortable and the first time I exercise after being dormant for a long time is painful and hard.  So I stuck to it so as not to have wasted the day.  Using my food tracking chart is working well.  When it's time for a snack I look at my chart and see what I still need to eat and instead of grabbing some chocolate, I'll grab an apple and peanut butter, or eat some eggs or use my healthy snack option.  Which reminds me I still need to make those peanut butter energy bites to have on hand for my healthy snack..... I'll post the recipe when I get around to making them.  Good old pinterest.

Today I went back to the gym for my second workout.  I did running again.  5 minute warm up walk, 1 minute run at 5.0 mph (up from 4.8 the first time), 2 minutes walking at 3.0 mph.  repeat until reach 40 minutes, 5 minute cooldown.
It was much easier this time than the first day, but it was still difficult.  I'm trying to model my running after the 10k training app I did when training for my triathlon, I don't want to do too much too fast or I will end up with shin splints and have to start all over.  Plus I'm a lot heavier and more out of shape than the last time, so easing into things is a better idea than what I usually do which is plow headfirst and get myself hurt or discouraged because its too hard.


Thinking about starting and changing my habits gets me thinking about how I am going to stay on track.  I don't want to develop the bad habits I had last time like binge eating, weighing myself every day, and obsessing over weight loss and my body image.  That's not mentally or physically healthy.
One of the big problems I run into is the sheer length of time it is going to take to lose all the weight I want to.  I always feel like I'm working and working and I never get anywhere.  I've decided this time not to do that.  I've decided to just make small goals I can actually achieve and then once I reach those goals, to move onto the next one.  This is what everyone says you are supposed to do in the first place, but of course I never listen.  My first goal is to just get under 200 pounds.  I managed to slip under 200 pounds when I was doing Optavia, but of course once I quit I've been creeping back up ever since because I've been eating EVERYTHING plus some.

I starting out Monday at:213.6

My goals this week are to stick with my eating plan, and get to the gym three times (I wrote that sentence Monday in a saved post, and I've been to the gym twice and stayed on plan so doing pretty go so far!)

All in all things are starting out pretty good.  I feel good about this plan I've created for myself and I think it's going to work well.  I already feel better, like I can move around better and I'm not always in a sugar coma.  If you are interested my milk supply has dropped, and it only took two days for it to drop, but I was expecting that and baby boy is over 1 year old so I'm not as worried about it as I was before.  He's still getting milk, and I'm going to take my more milk plus supplement that I bought last time and then didn't use because I quit altogether in favor of having a better milk supply.

I think I am on my way to finding a new normal and a new way of life.