As promised I am doing an official weigh in today now that I know all the sodium is out of my system. I was hoping to be around 146 so you can imagine my surprise when I stepped on the scale this morning and it said this:
I am making sure that this time I use everything I have learned over the past few months so as not to let myself feel deprived, or starved. I really want to make this a real lifestyle change, a liveable lifestyle change. Get food back into its proper place, stop obsessing over it so much. Seriously I used to think about food every waking moment, always living for the next meal, or the next snack. Food is something to be used to fuel your body so you can do everything else you want to do! I needed to stop living for the food. I'm making sure my snacks are balanced and filling, I'm making sure my meals are the same. I'm making sure to eat until I'm satisfied, and listen to my body. What does my body want? Not what does my head think my body wants. I am tired of feeling sick from overeating, tired of feeling sick from eating too much sugar. I have discovered that my tolerance for sugar is actually much lower now, after I cut it out for three weeks (that's all I lasted but I think it was enough). Sugar gives me a raging headache and popcorn has lately been giving me stomach aches. I am also working on the thought side of it. Instead of saying "I wish I could eat those five cookies like my husband" I tell myself "I am glad I am not eating those five cookies, because they would make me feel sick, give me a headache and hinder my weight loss." Another thing mentioned in "The Beck Diet Solution" about thinking was hunger and saying "I recognize I'm a little hungry right now, but it's okay, I'm going to have dinner (or my next meal or a snack) in just a little bit. My meal is only an hour a way, I can wait" And then you go get involved in something else and before you know it it's time to eat. Life isn't about food, it's about being active, participating, living. And food is the fuel that allows you to do other things.
In other news, I figured out why I have been having such a hard time drinking my water over the past month. My tumbler I was using broke, so I bought a new one: