Control. When we encounter situations we can't control it leads to stress, and we have to find a way to cope with the situation. I bet for most people reading this their coping mechanism is food. Mine certainly is. It's something I am trying to change. I thought maybe replacing it with exercise would be a good idea, but it just isn't something feasible for me. When I get stressed and angry I can't just drop everything and go workout. Especially if I have already worked out that day. So I will have to find something else because no matter how out of control our world seems, there is always one thing we can control. Ourselves. I was reading on a blog called "It Sux to be Fat" and she was talking about how the one thing we can control is what we eat. It is entirely up to us what we put into our bodies. This is so true. I can't control that my kids are sick. I can't control my husband's crazy schedule, I certainly can't control the weather and despite my best efforts I can't seem to control my allergies. Instead of allowing this to drive me to food in desperation, I should take comfort in the fact that amidst all this chaos there is at least one thing that I can control.
I cannot make my kids play nicely together, I can try to stop them from fighting and encourage them to share but they are their own people and they will make their own choices. I can't force Chloe to fall asleep at bed time instead of staying up until 9:30. I can't stop the kids from waking up in the middle of the night, sometimes three or four times between them and waking me up. I can't stop Lily from waking up and crawling into my bed in the middle of the night causing me to sleep poorly and be exceedingly tired the next day Sometimes all we can do is try our best and hope for the best. I need to stop letting all this stuff stress me out as much, plan activities, play games, and do my best.