Definitely not my best eating day. In fact, today and the past few days have made me realize something important. I have no normal eating pattern. Normal doesn't exist for me. If I'm not actively trying to eat well, I just eat like crap all the time. I don't ever naturally make the healthy choice. So I need a better plan of attack, and I'm going back to what I really wanted to do at the beginning of the year that I of course already forgot about. I can't forget about it again. I need to focus on it. I need to do it. One meal shakeology, one meal paleo, one meal Whole 30. One healthy snack after my Shakeology. Treats only allowed on special occasion days. It really is amazing how quickly I forget what I'm supposed to be doing. How easy it is to make unhealthy choices. I attended a webnar this past week that was about breaking the yoyo diet cycle and a couple things they mentioned that really hit me was that you need to make healthy choices not because you hate yourself and you want to lose weight. But because you love yourself and eating your vegetables is good for you and good for your body. You need to act out of a place of love for yourself vs a place of hatred for yourself. That I think is key to being able to naturally choose the healthier choice. When you love yourself and your body you want to treat it well. And of course that helps with emotional eating because I'm not eating then to cover up the pain of hating myself so much.
On another topic, today was Chloe's birthday. We are having her big party tomorrow but she got her cake today and all her presents from us. She turned 3 today. I love this little girl!