My scale. A tool or a torture? Maybe both. I've learned that this journey is more that just about the numbers on the scale. This past year I have been so focused on the numbers that the scale shows. I would be happy when it registered a loss, and really upset when it showed a gain. My weigh in could affect not only my mood, but my eating as well. And not in a good way. If I gained I wouldn't correct and eat healthier and track what I ate, instead I would eat out of control because I was upset. This really hit home two weeks ago when I was sure I was going to see a loss that week. I managed to stay off the scale all week. I felt great, my confidence was high... until I stepped on the scale and it said I "gained" 5 pounds in the week. I am lifting weights now and the last two months have been hard. I haven't seen the scale go down and that has been hard on my numbers based mind. But I have lost 6 inches and I feel great. I feel strong and my clothes are feeling looser.
After my 5 pound gain weigh in I completely lost it for a week. I overate like crazy, and stuffed myself with sugar and junk food. I couldn't help it. I was so upset. Fast forward one week to when I took my measurements for the end of that 30 day weight lifting phase. I had lost an inch and a half off my hips and another half an inch off my chest, and 2% body fat. I realized: the numbers on the scale are not everything.
If I hadn't weighed myself that day, my week would have been completely different. So for the duration of my next 30 day weight lifting period I have decided to stay off the scale. And just in case I have the temptation to step on the scale:
Ha! Now I can't step on the scale mindlessly. So if I get the urge, I can just look at that and remember that it is off limits this month. I am doing this so that my weekly weigh ins don't affect my mood so much that it destroys what results I might get.
I am only four days into this next phase and already I feel great. I have moved on past my bad weigh in and I am focusing on how strong I feel. I am noticing my pants fit better and these are the things I am now focusing on as well as eating healthy and finding out what works for me.