|This is the toy that was dropped on my big toe|
So today I'm all busted and bruised and in a pretty crummy mood. But I went to costco and bought two new swimsuits for swimming laps so I don't get so much drag with all the extra fabric on my current swimsuit. Chloe has still been hacking up a lung so I didn't want to take her to the gym today, but it was 70deg today and i took the kids to the park! (Unfortunately I didn't put sunscreen on and of course Lily got burned on her arms. Chloe and I were fine because we have a much darker complexion, but Lily is so fair skinned and burns easily.) The kids loved the swings and had a great time.
Afterwards I fell asleep on the couch. I think I have been working myself too hard lately and so maybe being injured and being forced to take it easier will help me recover some energy.
I woke up only a few minutes later. The kids were watching Dora, and proceeds to climb all over me. I woke up in a worse mood than this morning. I wanted a snack and of course I decided to eat some leftover birthday cake and I discovered something very important. It took me abou 5 minutes to eat that cake and there were probably 500 calories in that cake. I realized that when the food is gone all you are left with is the stomach ache afterwards, the energy drop, and a memory. After I drank my milk I didn't even have th taste of th cake in my mouth anymore! I realized it just wasn't worth the pain. The momentary pleasure isn't worth to extra pounds, the stomach ache, the guilt, the crummy feeling you get. The pleasure doesn't even last that long! 5 minutes? Totally not worth it.
About an hour later I thought I was the worst mom in th world because I was so angry and my temper so short I just wanted to lock myself in my room and cry. Fortunately by that time Chloe was feeling better and said she wanted to go to the gym. So I figured I better get put of there before I did something I would regret. I dropped the kids off and headed for th hot tub. That's when i noticed I had perfect timing for the Aqua Zumba class and I thought I should give it a try. It wasn't as intense as regular Zumba and certainly didn't get my heart rate up like regular Zumba but it was exercise and It didn't hurt my back or my foot! That is when my mood improved and I realized I was so upset because I didn't workout earlier in the morning like I usually do. I hadn't realized how dependent I had become on exercise to boost my mood and get me through the day. It really does help to relieve stress and make you happier. So I just have to change up my exercise while I am injured. There is a body flow class I want to try that is a stretching and yoga combo. Maybe if I burn fewer calories I won't be so hungry and I won't eat as much food and I will finally be able to lose some weight! At the very least. Focusing on my swimming will be good for triathlon training. After Aqua Zumba today I swam laps. I don't know how many, I just swam. I plugged everything into MFP except Aqua Zumba (it's not in their database and I forgot to bring my heart rate monitor) and even with the cake I stayed under calories.