After my fast walk (I stayed on for a hour to feel like I got a good workout. My pace was 4.4 mph through most of it) I went and sat in the hot tub for a while. I love the hot tub at the gym, they have them in the locker rooms so they are female exclusive and I don't even have to leave the locker room! It's great. Afterwards it was time to go home, a quick lunch and we were off to the mountains for our first family hike of the season. It was about 66 deg out today, super nice. In an interesting turn of events Chloe did better than Lily! My 2 year old was running up the mountain as my 4 year old was shouting behind "wait for me!" I was just shocked. Chloe did amazing the whole time and when it was time to turn around, we turned around because Lily was tired and wanted to go home. Chloe wanted to keep going!
|Hike is over|
The reason why I wanted to buy more pants was because I am so tired of always being on a diet and never buying pants because soon they won't fit anymore. I've told myself that my whole life and always ended up dangerously understocked on pants (generally following the 2 pairs of pants method). I am really serious about finding a way of living and I am seriously considering taking the scale out of my life and just focusing on how I feel. If I'm not stressing to hit a number I am less likely to binge. I have been stressing that I won't be able to do a triathlon unless I am a certain weight, but I saw several people heavier than me at the gym today doing an indoor triathlon! I beat myself up for eating a few too many chips, but really in the end it doesn't matter because I am under calories at the end of the day. This whole crazy diet mentality has got to stop. I'm tired of it. I've been doing it my whole life and I am ready to really figure out this whole lifestyle thing. Today I had a 110 calorie frozen yogurt and late at night I had an 80 calorie special K brownie. I did a lot of exercise today, and my total calorie intake was about 1,900. But I earned 900 in exercise so I was still way under according to MFP. I think if you workout more, you will need to eat a little more. Your body needs to recover. For the first time, I am really thinking about the long term. I will know I'm making progress because I will feel better, I will perform better, and I will fit back into my size 8 pants some day. I just want to stop obsessing over myself, strive to love myself, and live a happy life. Is that too much to ask?