You know what's going to be nice is when my workout clothes fit again. I have a few items that I can still wear, but most of my clothes no longer fit. It makes working out 5 days a week either hard because of laundry, or gross because I don't do laundry. But whatever, it's only one hour a day and then I can shower and be less gross.
Anyway, on with the topic for today. I snuck a peak at the scale this morning and was down to 177.2. Most excellent. I hope I can at least maintain that weight for my official weigh in on Monday.
I thought I would give a peak at my food logs for this week. I figured I would give my highest calorie day and my lowest calorie day so here it is.
Lowest: Tuesday with 1,754 calories
Breakfast
Homemade hashbrowns 4 oz 300 cal
two poached eggs 147 cal
Lunch
Avocado half 125 cal
Boars Head Turkey 1.5 oz 45 cal
Rudi's Sourdough bread 2 slices 180 cal
Basil Pesto 1 tbsp. 82 cal
Onions 2 tbsp. 8 cal
Fire roasted tomatoes in olive oil 60 cal
(lunch was a sandwich in case you couldn't tell)
Dinner
Brussels sprouts- 1 cup 38 cal
Coconut oil 3/4 tbsp. 90 cal
Grapes 1 cup 62 cal
Rib Eye Steak 6 oz 300 cal
Snacks
One Peach 66 cal
1 cup goldfish 140 cal
Desserts
1/2 cookie White chocolate 110
So it wasn't the absolutely healthiest day but it is a vast improvement upon what I was eating in the past.
Highest Calorie day: Friday, total calories: 2,511
Breakfast
3 eggs scrambled 180 cal
Almondmilk 1 cup 30 cal
Avocado oil 1 tsp 43 cal
onions 2 tbsp. 8
red bell pepper 2 tbsp. 6
Macadamia nuts 1/2 oz 100
(I had an egg scramble with some nuts on the side)
Lunch
Onions 8
Sourdough bread 2 slices 180
Basil Pesto 82
Roast Beef 3 oz 105
Apple 1 medium 80
3/4 peach 44
Vinegar and sea salt chips 140
Dinner
Olive Garden Shrimp Scampi 570
Olive Garden 2 breadsticks 280
Olive Garden Chicken and Gnocchi soup 1/2 bowl 125
Dessert
Home made white chocolate chip macadamia nut cookies 4 cookies 528 calories
So today was the highest day in calories, but I'm not worried about it very much I didn't go way overboard on anything, I chose a reasonable dinner at a restaurant that has many meals that are around 1,500 calories a meal. The only thing I regret is the soup because I had forgotten that that particular soup was white, meaning it was probably cooked with milk, (or half and half or heavy cream, it's all wreaks the same havoc in my digestive system) meaning I now have a stomach ache. I started feeling sick as soon as we left the restaurant. I should have not eaten a single bite when I saw it and realized that it was made with dairy, but I am still me and I love that soup and didn't want it to go to waste so I thought I could eat half of it and get away with it. Well, we will see what tonight brings, but right now I'm managing. If it doesn't get worse then I can deal, however the pain has a bad habit of hitting around 11pm when I've just fallen asleep or I'm trying to fall asleep. Probably because I'm no longer moving.
Well, anyway, that is all for today. The plan for Saturday and Sunday is to keep it a little lighter and stay out of the cookies I made tonight. I went all day Wednesday and Thursday without any dessert so lets see if I can go Saturday and Sunday and make that four days this week with no dessert. That seems pretty reasonable to me
The good the Bad and the ugly. My personal journey to become healthy, happy, fit, and to attain peace with food and myself.
Friday, June 10, 2016
Wednesday, June 8, 2016
Exercise- then and now
Yesterday was a harder day. I was exhausted for most of the day. Starting a new exercise regime combined with very little sleep will do that to you. I was craving chocolate for about six hours yesterday. But I knew that it would profit me nothing to sit down and eat a cup of chocolate chips. I knew that I would feel sick afterwards, I knew that I would be upset with myself afterwards, and I also knew that eating plain chocolate chips was not really what I wanted. I wanted that chocolate cake from the restaurant Monday night. So I was able to talk myself out of it. I'm proud of myself for not giving in. I think finding a balance with sweets is going to be key if I am going to have success moderating my diet in the long term. I don't want to do anything crazy like cutting it out completely. I've tried it, to disastrous effects (can you say binging). But I also know I don't really need to be spending 400 calories a day on desserts. Yesterday I ate half an oatmeal raisin cookie, because the craving for sugar was so strong. But it wasn't chocolate and it didn't satisfy so I didn't finish it, and I didn't try to satisfy my craving by eating the remainder of the oatmeal raisin cookies we had left. So yes, I am proud of myself. Even though I ate sugar, I still made a good choice, and I was still able to be strong, and my half a cookie was about 100 calories. Much better than losing control and ending up eating 1,000-3000 calories depending on how out of control I became. I could have made cake. I could have made chocolate cookies. But I didn't. So yes, I am happy that I was able to avoid one of my biggest binge triggers- being very tired and not being able to sleep (since I can't sleep unless my kids are sleeping otherwise little toddlers are unsupervised and that's bad).
Anyway, I have exercised for three days in a row this week. My goal is five days a week. I think that is a really good number for me. I've been trying to think about what really worked the first year when I lost most of my weight. I have been thinking about what I want to maintain and what feels good for me. And I think that exercising five days a week, for about an hour a day is a really good place for me. That's what feels good, and it doesn't feel like it's too much and I feel like I've accomplished something. Doing 30 minutes a day felt too short and going over an hour feels too long and leaves me exhausted the rest of the day. I've also been thinking about the quality of my workouts. When I was in the thick of things, mainly after the first year, I was so obsessed with trying to lose weight and so frustrated that I couldn't that I developed this mentality that my workouts needed to be at max effort and max capacity all the time. I didn't want to warm up or cool down, I wanted to get the highest calorie burn possible, and I nearly drove myself insane trying to do it. In reality, the warm up and the cool down are super important. They prepare your body for working harder and help you recover and transition into your next activity.
I've also realized that not every day is going to be awesome and that is OK. I'm going to have off days just like I'm going to have awesome days. Some days I'm really tired and I have to do an easier workout and some days I feel great and I can really kill at my workout. There is an ebb and flow, and it's not going to be high intensity all the time. And that is ok because the important thing is that I am moving. I am working my body, and I'm doing something I love. I've been playing Zumba Core on my Wii
Anyway, I have exercised for three days in a row this week. My goal is five days a week. I think that is a really good number for me. I've been trying to think about what really worked the first year when I lost most of my weight. I have been thinking about what I want to maintain and what feels good for me. And I think that exercising five days a week, for about an hour a day is a really good place for me. That's what feels good, and it doesn't feel like it's too much and I feel like I've accomplished something. Doing 30 minutes a day felt too short and going over an hour feels too long and leaves me exhausted the rest of the day. I've also been thinking about the quality of my workouts. When I was in the thick of things, mainly after the first year, I was so obsessed with trying to lose weight and so frustrated that I couldn't that I developed this mentality that my workouts needed to be at max effort and max capacity all the time. I didn't want to warm up or cool down, I wanted to get the highest calorie burn possible, and I nearly drove myself insane trying to do it. In reality, the warm up and the cool down are super important. They prepare your body for working harder and help you recover and transition into your next activity.
I've also realized that not every day is going to be awesome and that is OK. I'm going to have off days just like I'm going to have awesome days. Some days I'm really tired and I have to do an easier workout and some days I feel great and I can really kill at my workout. There is an ebb and flow, and it's not going to be high intensity all the time. And that is ok because the important thing is that I am moving. I am working my body, and I'm doing something I love. I've been playing Zumba Core on my Wii
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To be successful at maintaining a workout, I need to be doing something I love. And I love Zumba, and I love these games. When I get tired of the core workouts, I'm going to switch over to the Zumba Dance app on my ipad. I should figure out how to hook it up to the TV. Then I will go over to Zumba World Party. I don't have a whole lot of future plans because I don't know what the future is going to look like next month. I'm taking it one step at a time.
Monday, June 6, 2016
crunching numbers, weekly recap
I made it one whole week. Can you believe it? I started out one week ago at 181 and today I weighed in at 178.4. That's down 2.6 pounds and a pretty good start. I'm feeling pretty good. I don't feel like I'm overextending myself or that I'm restricting in a way that will cause me to spiral out of control. My foot is feeling much better and I was able to continue my workouts as usual today. Today was the best day I've had as far as exercise goes so far. Last week was really hard. I was just so exhausted every day, but today I felt slightly better. A little bit more energy.
Lily still has a fever, we are pretty sure it is Colorado Tick Fever. The good news is that it's not all that severe, and certainly not fatal. Unlike limes disease it will be completely expunged from her body within six months and after the initial two weeks she should be back to normal. I guess we will just have to lay low for a few weeks. But now that dance recitals are over, we don't have much on the schedule. It was pretty remarkable that she was able to feel well enough to go perform. God does hear and answer prayers.
Today is my Anniversary. We have been married for 8 years! We went to a Brazilian place called Tucanos. It was awesome. I feel like I didn't stuff myself stupid which is always good. (It's an all you can eat meat and salad buffet. It's pretty much awesome). And we split a dessert. I ate light all day long since I knew we were going to have a heavy dinner and MFP doesn't have much in the way of calorie counts for Tucanos, and since an all you can eat buffet is rather difficult to count I just put in 1,000 calories for dinner, plus 300 for the cake.
Here are some interesting numbers for this past week as far as calories in vs calories out goes:
Day Calories consumed (1900 goal) Calories burned (calculated by my fitbit blaze)
Today 2,284 2,937 (as of 8:30pm)
Yesterday 1,937 2,346
Saturday 2,316 3,473
Friday 2,199 3,507
Thursday 1,767 2,763
Wednesday 1,825 2,988
Tuesday 1,736 3,013
So even on days where my calorie count was higher than my goal, my calories burned was way above what I ate. So when you run the numbers, to lose 2.5 pounds you would technically have to have a calorie deficit of 8,500 calories. My calorie deficit for each day last week looks like this:
Day Deficit
Today 653
Yesterday 409
Saturday 1,157
Friday 1,308
Thursday 996
Wednesday 1,163
Tuesday 1,277
Total Deficit 6,963
Notice how the numbers don't match up. That's because our bodies and our weight are composed of much more than just calories in vs calories out. Some of the weight loss is excess food weight. Whenever I start eating less food, there is less inside me and so naturally I weigh less. There is also water to take into account and any number of other things. But now that I have a method of actually tracking how many calories I burn and how many calories I eat, I think it will be very interesting to see how the numbers match up. Will I lose a pound with a 3,500 calorie deficit? The second week will be more revealing since I won't be dealing so much with the whole starting out gap.
Lily still has a fever, we are pretty sure it is Colorado Tick Fever. The good news is that it's not all that severe, and certainly not fatal. Unlike limes disease it will be completely expunged from her body within six months and after the initial two weeks she should be back to normal. I guess we will just have to lay low for a few weeks. But now that dance recitals are over, we don't have much on the schedule. It was pretty remarkable that she was able to feel well enough to go perform. God does hear and answer prayers.
Today is my Anniversary. We have been married for 8 years! We went to a Brazilian place called Tucanos. It was awesome. I feel like I didn't stuff myself stupid which is always good. (It's an all you can eat meat and salad buffet. It's pretty much awesome). And we split a dessert. I ate light all day long since I knew we were going to have a heavy dinner and MFP doesn't have much in the way of calorie counts for Tucanos, and since an all you can eat buffet is rather difficult to count I just put in 1,000 calories for dinner, plus 300 for the cake.
Here are some interesting numbers for this past week as far as calories in vs calories out goes:
Day Calories consumed (1900 goal) Calories burned (calculated by my fitbit blaze)
Today 2,284 2,937 (as of 8:30pm)
Yesterday 1,937 2,346
Saturday 2,316 3,473
Friday 2,199 3,507
Thursday 1,767 2,763
Wednesday 1,825 2,988
Tuesday 1,736 3,013
So even on days where my calorie count was higher than my goal, my calories burned was way above what I ate. So when you run the numbers, to lose 2.5 pounds you would technically have to have a calorie deficit of 8,500 calories. My calorie deficit for each day last week looks like this:
Day Deficit
Today 653
Yesterday 409
Saturday 1,157
Friday 1,308
Thursday 996
Wednesday 1,163
Tuesday 1,277
Total Deficit 6,963
Notice how the numbers don't match up. That's because our bodies and our weight are composed of much more than just calories in vs calories out. Some of the weight loss is excess food weight. Whenever I start eating less food, there is less inside me and so naturally I weigh less. There is also water to take into account and any number of other things. But now that I have a method of actually tracking how many calories I burn and how many calories I eat, I think it will be very interesting to see how the numbers match up. Will I lose a pound with a 3,500 calorie deficit? The second week will be more revealing since I won't be dealing so much with the whole starting out gap.
Friday, June 3, 2016
Still Going
Do you ever feel like the Universe is against you? Day two of exercising I landed on my right foot wrong, in exactly the same way I hurt my left foot two years ago. The difference was I wasn't coming down from a jump so fortunately I didn't hurt myself too bad. Last time I landed on my foot like that it took three months to heal. I hurt the rest of Wednesday, but used Deep Blue from Doterra and Ibuprofen to manage the pain. On Thursday I rested from exercising and as long as I didn't move my foot from side to side I was ok. Today I was able to exercise again, but I kept it very low intensity. I woke up exhausted today. Chloe fell out of bed at 5am and then Lily woke up sick at 5:30. Lily was sick last night with a fever. I'm dreading that it is Colorado Tick Fever. She was bit by a tick on Monday when we were staying in the Mountains near Gunnison. It takes six months for the virus to completely leave your body and about half of infected people experience multiple breakouts during that time (usually two, the initial fever and then another one later). It could be something else, my brother is also sick with a fever and sore throat and Lily has been staying up late for the past several nights so who knows. I gave her some medicine today and she has been acting a lot better, so at least medicine is helping her feel better.
I was pretty tired during my workout today, but since I couldn't have done anything high intensity if I was feeling up for it, I guess it all worked out. I still burned over 500 calories.
I'm trying not to worry about where I was. Pining for the past is not going to help anything, it's not going to change anything. I can only work with where I am now and make progress from my current situation. I've been doing good with my food. Tuesday I ate 1,736 calories, Wednesday was 1,825 and Thursday was 1,767. I feel really good about that. I think I'm on the right track.
I was pretty tired during my workout today, but since I couldn't have done anything high intensity if I was feeling up for it, I guess it all worked out. I still burned over 500 calories.
I'm trying not to worry about where I was. Pining for the past is not going to help anything, it's not going to change anything. I can only work with where I am now and make progress from my current situation. I've been doing good with my food. Tuesday I ate 1,736 calories, Wednesday was 1,825 and Thursday was 1,767. I feel really good about that. I think I'm on the right track.
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Wednesday, June 1, 2016
Awakening
Over the weekend we went to the Ranch, which is a plot of land up in the mountains that my In-Laws own. Matt grew up going there and it is special to him. It has no internet and no cell phone service, but it is the outdoor enthusiasts paradise. Plenty of hiking, biking, trail running, ATV riding, and even places to go kayaking (not that we do that one), but pretty much it's like glorified camping on account of we don't have to pitch a tent, they have a cabin. I haven't been since last summer since we don't go over the winter as it gets snowed in. Last summer I was training for a triathlon, last summer I was in shape. This weekend I am thirty pounds heavier than last summer, and this weekend was a slap in the face. It was the kick in the butt I needed, combined with my cycle starting. In the past I could pretty much pick a month and be pregnant. So I figured that would happen again, apparently not. I have to now accept the fact that I haven't the slightest clue what the past six months have done to my reproductive system and it might just be that my body is not yet ready. So while I am waiting I might as well make the most of my time and then I can at least continue being active and eating healthy when the time comes that I do get pregnant.
Anyway, this weekend was tough. Physically tough. I went out hiking with the kids and we flew kites, and drove around on the ATVs that my In-Laws have, and I hit 10,000 steps by 1:00 and I passed out. Meaning that I fell asleep and took a nap with Chloe. I was totally and utterly spent by 1:00. Then I was tired and exhausted for the rest of the trip. I did everything I could, continuing to go on hikes, and helping Lily learn to ride without training wheels, but I was just so tired. I was really cranky by the third day. I was so tired and so physically drained, but my kids and my husband kept going and I trailed along like a cranky zombie. I felt like I was going to crash at any moment, I just wanted to lie down and sleep. It was the longest morning of my life, of course the kids getting up at 5:45am didn't help matters. I was so relieved when it was time to go and I could just sit in the car for the 4 hr drive home.
It was a tough reality break. I could have had a much more enjoyable time if I hadn't let myself get so out of control. But it was the wake up call I needed. I don't want to repeat that experience the next time we go. I want to be a little bit healthier, and a little bit more fit. I'm sure we will be going in June so there is only so much I can do before we go again, but every little bit helps. So here I am, not quite back at the beginning. I gained back half of what I lost, now sitting at 180, a little bit wiser, a little bit older. But I want my body back, the body that I maintained at 150 for two years. I never made it to my goal and when I was at 150 the first time all I could think about was losing more weight. Now it seems like it would be nice to be back there, at least when I was there I could keep up with my family.
So I need to make permanent changes that I really can maintain. I feel like I got caught up in all the fads and swept away by what was popular at the moment and I was so zeroed in and focused on losing weight I let myself become consumed with the need to do anything to lose weight instead of focusing on what would benefit me and what my body needed. I'm starting out simple. I've set my calories at 1,900 calories per day. According to my fitbit I burn about 2,500 calories per day. As I lose weight I will need to lower my calorie intake. It's similar to what I did on Weight Watchers. They don't just start you out at 25 points per day. Depending on your weight and circumstances you get to eat more when you start out. The last time I started I was at 53 points per day (granted I was nursing and you get 14 points for that). The point is, I'm not going to starve myself, I don't need a quick fix. Patience. Something I've never been too good at. It's time to develop some patience, and do what is right.
Anyway, this weekend was tough. Physically tough. I went out hiking with the kids and we flew kites, and drove around on the ATVs that my In-Laws have, and I hit 10,000 steps by 1:00 and I passed out. Meaning that I fell asleep and took a nap with Chloe. I was totally and utterly spent by 1:00. Then I was tired and exhausted for the rest of the trip. I did everything I could, continuing to go on hikes, and helping Lily learn to ride without training wheels, but I was just so tired. I was really cranky by the third day. I was so tired and so physically drained, but my kids and my husband kept going and I trailed along like a cranky zombie. I felt like I was going to crash at any moment, I just wanted to lie down and sleep. It was the longest morning of my life, of course the kids getting up at 5:45am didn't help matters. I was so relieved when it was time to go and I could just sit in the car for the 4 hr drive home.
It was a tough reality break. I could have had a much more enjoyable time if I hadn't let myself get so out of control. But it was the wake up call I needed. I don't want to repeat that experience the next time we go. I want to be a little bit healthier, and a little bit more fit. I'm sure we will be going in June so there is only so much I can do before we go again, but every little bit helps. So here I am, not quite back at the beginning. I gained back half of what I lost, now sitting at 180, a little bit wiser, a little bit older. But I want my body back, the body that I maintained at 150 for two years. I never made it to my goal and when I was at 150 the first time all I could think about was losing more weight. Now it seems like it would be nice to be back there, at least when I was there I could keep up with my family.
So I need to make permanent changes that I really can maintain. I feel like I got caught up in all the fads and swept away by what was popular at the moment and I was so zeroed in and focused on losing weight I let myself become consumed with the need to do anything to lose weight instead of focusing on what would benefit me and what my body needed. I'm starting out simple. I've set my calories at 1,900 calories per day. According to my fitbit I burn about 2,500 calories per day. As I lose weight I will need to lower my calorie intake. It's similar to what I did on Weight Watchers. They don't just start you out at 25 points per day. Depending on your weight and circumstances you get to eat more when you start out. The last time I started I was at 53 points per day (granted I was nursing and you get 14 points for that). The point is, I'm not going to starve myself, I don't need a quick fix. Patience. Something I've never been too good at. It's time to develop some patience, and do what is right.
Wednesday, May 18, 2016
Living
I don't have much to say about weight loss and eating, but I felt like I should write about something, otherwise this blog is going to end up abandoned. So right now it's either evolve it or let it die. I figure the real undertones to blogging are simplified to one word: Life. That is why people read weight loss blogs anyway, to hear about real life.
I've been under the weather the past week with another cold. You would think my immune system would be getting stronger after being sick so much over the past year but apparently, it didn't get the message. So although I had a cold just three weeks ago, that one was in my throat, this one is in my sinuses. I'm not sure which is worse, having your throat so sore that you can't hardly breath or swallow, or having your head stuffed with so much snot that you can't thing straight, sleep, or do anything else because your head is pounding and the pressure is nearly unbearable. hmmm, possibly the second one. At least my teeth weren't hurting. That's usually a sign of a sinus infection, when my molars start hurting due to the pressure in my head.
Anyway, I just beat Dragon Quest 8 on my phone, because I am a nerd and love RPG games. Not too much of a fan of playing online games where there are other gamers playing live with you, I just like me on my own system playing by myself.
I'm trying to read one book a day with Lily. After she finished her reading lessons, and then I ended up in the hospital and went through recovery, I let her reading slack and she is having a hard time with words she didn't use to have trouble with. I have a friend who just had an Usborne book party and I bought their beginner readers set. When that comes in I'm going to go through that with Lily, I think it will be a good refresher and also help build her confidence and get down some of the concepts she wasn't too rock solid on before. She never did grasp the concept that an "e" on the end of a word makes the vowel say it's name... of course she doesn't quite remember what her vowels are either but hey, she hasn't even hit kindergarten yet so I'm not too worried. I also hear the Billie B Brown books are great books to start reading after the Usborne set. Chloe is doing much better now at learning and remembering her alphabet. She only has two more princesses to get, so that is 10 more letters to learn, or rather 7, since she knows Q, R, and S and just needs to learn T, and U.
We bought a season's pass to Elitch Gardens this summer, I figured it would be a good summer to go since both the kids are big enough to go on all the kiddie rides and we don't have any babies underfoot. Chloe calls the roller coaster the "big train" and they both loved it.
I haven't played my flute much this week because of the pressure in my head. I did record a song though and if I can figure out how to get a sound recording up on the blog I will post it. Right now I just see video and picture, but flute has gotten hard again. My teacher has changed my embouchure again. Not as bad as the first time, but I have to make sure to drop my jaw and keep my tongue down at the bottom of my mouth which right now takes a lot of mental effort. I'm sure it will get easier with time though, but I am bummed about not being able to practice much this week due to my cold. Oh well, you can't win them all.
I've been under the weather the past week with another cold. You would think my immune system would be getting stronger after being sick so much over the past year but apparently, it didn't get the message. So although I had a cold just three weeks ago, that one was in my throat, this one is in my sinuses. I'm not sure which is worse, having your throat so sore that you can't hardly breath or swallow, or having your head stuffed with so much snot that you can't thing straight, sleep, or do anything else because your head is pounding and the pressure is nearly unbearable. hmmm, possibly the second one. At least my teeth weren't hurting. That's usually a sign of a sinus infection, when my molars start hurting due to the pressure in my head.
Anyway, I just beat Dragon Quest 8 on my phone, because I am a nerd and love RPG games. Not too much of a fan of playing online games where there are other gamers playing live with you, I just like me on my own system playing by myself.
I'm trying to read one book a day with Lily. After she finished her reading lessons, and then I ended up in the hospital and went through recovery, I let her reading slack and she is having a hard time with words she didn't use to have trouble with. I have a friend who just had an Usborne book party and I bought their beginner readers set. When that comes in I'm going to go through that with Lily, I think it will be a good refresher and also help build her confidence and get down some of the concepts she wasn't too rock solid on before. She never did grasp the concept that an "e" on the end of a word makes the vowel say it's name... of course she doesn't quite remember what her vowels are either but hey, she hasn't even hit kindergarten yet so I'm not too worried. I also hear the Billie B Brown books are great books to start reading after the Usborne set. Chloe is doing much better now at learning and remembering her alphabet. She only has two more princesses to get, so that is 10 more letters to learn, or rather 7, since she knows Q, R, and S and just needs to learn T, and U.
We bought a season's pass to Elitch Gardens this summer, I figured it would be a good summer to go since both the kids are big enough to go on all the kiddie rides and we don't have any babies underfoot. Chloe calls the roller coaster the "big train" and they both loved it.
Sunday, May 8, 2016
Mother's Day
I had a good Mother's Day today. My husband and kids bought me an awesome necklace.
I love it, it's so sparkly! I haven't written in a while because I haven't had much to say. I was tracking my food and not worrying about what I ate and noticed that I was eating about 2300-2500 calories a day. That's a bit high, and is causing me to gain weight. I'm back at about 175, and I bought some summer clothes and my pants are size 14 and my shirts are larges. However, I just can't muster up the commitment to actually try to lose weight, especially with the prospect of getting pregnant soon. It's like: why bother?
So what I am doing is going to work on my habits. The good thing about all of this is that I have finally reached a "norm" for me. Or in other words I have established a baseline in which I feel like I can start changing habits to make healthier habits for myself. I'm going to work on changing one habit a month and if I feel like I need a little extra time I will allow myself an extra month or whatever I need. I feel like this is a good way to go at the moment since I am not exactly going to be losing weight while pregnant, but hopefully I can use the time to change bad habits I have and when I come out of it, maybe I won't be as large as I was when Chloe was born and maybe I will be eating healthier and in a better place, making long term changes slowly, and in a manner that I can actually sustain them for the long term.
So last month was Soda month. My soda goal for now is to drink only two 12-oz cans a day. No more than that. I didn't succeed every day, and I'm still working on it, but I feel pretty good about being able to fairly consistently drink only 2 cans a day. I feel like I'm in control and I can add a second habit to begin changing. The habit I am going to work on this month is to make sure I eat only one dessert a day. Tracking my food made me realize that many times I will eat multiple desserts or sweets a day. I will have a handful of skittles and then cookies later. I will eat dessert after lunch and dinner. Usually consisting of a combination of candy at one point in the day and baked goods at another, or when I'm making desserts, I eat desserts while I am making them and also after they are finished. So cutting it back to only one dessert a day is going to save me a lot of calories. Now I'm not making that one pea sized dessert, but one good sized dessert a day for now. That is a hard enough but small enough change for present and we can work on frequency and size later.
That's about all I have for now. I think I am going to try to make shorter posts more frequently rather than longer posts since I don't really have a whole lot to say on the weight loss side. The tone of my blog is going to change for a while, but I hope you still find some value in it.
I love it, it's so sparkly! I haven't written in a while because I haven't had much to say. I was tracking my food and not worrying about what I ate and noticed that I was eating about 2300-2500 calories a day. That's a bit high, and is causing me to gain weight. I'm back at about 175, and I bought some summer clothes and my pants are size 14 and my shirts are larges. However, I just can't muster up the commitment to actually try to lose weight, especially with the prospect of getting pregnant soon. It's like: why bother?
So what I am doing is going to work on my habits. The good thing about all of this is that I have finally reached a "norm" for me. Or in other words I have established a baseline in which I feel like I can start changing habits to make healthier habits for myself. I'm going to work on changing one habit a month and if I feel like I need a little extra time I will allow myself an extra month or whatever I need. I feel like this is a good way to go at the moment since I am not exactly going to be losing weight while pregnant, but hopefully I can use the time to change bad habits I have and when I come out of it, maybe I won't be as large as I was when Chloe was born and maybe I will be eating healthier and in a better place, making long term changes slowly, and in a manner that I can actually sustain them for the long term.
So last month was Soda month. My soda goal for now is to drink only two 12-oz cans a day. No more than that. I didn't succeed every day, and I'm still working on it, but I feel pretty good about being able to fairly consistently drink only 2 cans a day. I feel like I'm in control and I can add a second habit to begin changing. The habit I am going to work on this month is to make sure I eat only one dessert a day. Tracking my food made me realize that many times I will eat multiple desserts or sweets a day. I will have a handful of skittles and then cookies later. I will eat dessert after lunch and dinner. Usually consisting of a combination of candy at one point in the day and baked goods at another, or when I'm making desserts, I eat desserts while I am making them and also after they are finished. So cutting it back to only one dessert a day is going to save me a lot of calories. Now I'm not making that one pea sized dessert, but one good sized dessert a day for now. That is a hard enough but small enough change for present and we can work on frequency and size later.
That's about all I have for now. I think I am going to try to make shorter posts more frequently rather than longer posts since I don't really have a whole lot to say on the weight loss side. The tone of my blog is going to change for a while, but I hope you still find some value in it.
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