This is a whole new battle and one that I am not sure how to fight, therefore I have largely failed this week with eating healthily. My whole afternoon turned into one long grazing feat from about 3pm-6pm. Mostly crackers.... Not sure why I was craving crackers so much. I think it was because what I was really craving was sugar and I cannot be trusted around sugar. I am happy to say that although my eating hasn't been all that healthy I have not binged, and I weighed myself the other day and was 146.6, which I am very happy with on account of I knew that I was dehydrated and the scale was artificially low last Sunday. Hopefully the scale will stick around that range. I have still been getting my workouts in remarkably, mostly due to the fact that my oldest daughter begs to go to school almost every day, well school is the gym, so if I'm going to the gym, I'm going to get something accomplished. I've been thinking also this week of whether or not I will allow myself desserts again, and when that should be if I do. I would love to have a healthy relationship with those foods, right now is not the time. If I can't even look at or think about a food without having thoughts of binging then that food definitely has power over me and it is not safe for me to eat it if one bite is going to lead to a binge. So maybe the day will come when I no longer think about binging when I think of that food. Then, maybe the day will come when I no longer physically crave that food, and then maybe the day will come that I no longer psychologically crave that food. Perhaps then, when I no longer physically and emotionally want those foods I will be able to reintroduce them, until then I have been able to hold onto my resolve. One day at a time.